Jack White 25th July

Hilltop Hoods 25th August

The Black Keys 31st October

umadbro?

and all with ma schnoo <3

i try to do the right thing. i actually try to be better. i try to be calm. and i was. i didn’t get angry. i didn’t even let my heart race or my head get heavy. i stayed calm. i remained calm. i didn’t take any of it personally. and then you still presumed that i did. you accused me of being what i wasn’t. and i’m so offended. and what’s worse, is i had to tell you i was offended. i didn’t even want to show you i felt anything. because that’s the whole part of me being different, or trying to be anyway. but regardless, the point is still the same. i’m still hurt, you still know i’m hurt, you still got annoyed thinking it was all a certain. so the damage is still done. just another fucking issue to put under our belts, ruin our day, ruin our night, ruin our happy progress and to come up and fuck us over another day. what does that tell you rebecca? yep, that’s right, just as you’ve always felt you’re whole life. no body gives you the room for change. no matter how bad you want it and how hard you try. people gain expectations, you will never exceed them positively. it will always be the same. congratulations, this is who you will be for the rest of your life. welcome. enjoy it.

yet half because of laziness, and half because i keep feeling sick

i’ve missed the past 4 business classes, which has covered all the financial assignment, which now i don’t understand

2 computer sound productions, which means i’m behind on a presentation, as well as the fact that i accidentally submitted the wrong thing for the last assignment

something like 7 of one particular lecture.. which is fine, it’s pointless. and there’s only 2 assignments, and we haven’t started the second. but we got a high distinction on the first

and i haven’t missed any studio recording but i’m just behind due to technical misunderstandings.

this is pointless, i hope you haven’t wasted your time reading this. i’m just clearing my thoughts so i can get a move on.

i think there’s an extension for business, which is so good. dad can help me a lot probably so that will be fine.

computer sound production will be okay. i have a studio booked for 3 hours to work on the assignment on friday and then i have all of sunday to do the write up

studio is fine. i just have to present 3 assignments tomorrow and finish the small write up tonight.

it will be fine.

i just need to go get my stomach sorted, and pull my head out of my arse and start acting like i care again.

Starting to feel really unsure. Scared we’re in love with the idea but not with eachother. But we are. I know we are. Of course we are. How couldn’t we be? We’re perfect when we’re together. Almost always. It’s just a rough patch. Through all the changes. Changes always do that to people. Changes can be good. It’s a different place now. We aren’t in the same world. That’s okay. Maybe that’s even better. It doesn’t mean we have to stop because we’ve reached that fork in the road. We have to adapt. If we have to move different ways occasionally that’s okay too, because sometimes its good to face things on our own. We’ve fought so many external factors and succeeded. It’s been messy but we’ve gotten there. Why can’t we keep going? Of course we can, because we’re better than that. We’re stronger than that. I’m scared we’re losing interest, losing sight of each other, of the bigger picture. I know sometimes that happens. I know sometimes changes make people drift apart. Problem after problem can do that to. It’s time to pick our battles, although sometimes when things are ongoing that’s so hard to do. But that’s what we need to do or we’ll just resent each other. We’ll become those people that we used to know. The selfish, neglectful one. The selfish, angry one. We don’t need to be those people. We definitely don’t need to be those people to each other. I don’t ever want to watch you fall in lust or fall in love with someone else. I don’t want to lose my best friend. I don’t want you to just be my friend though because we know that’s not possible for us. Let’s not lose sight. Let’s be patient, let’s be kind, let’s be pleasant, let’s be fine. Let’s love like we used to. Because I love you. You’re amazing. You’re a dickhead. But you’re my dickhead and that’s all that matters. Be mine always. I’m yours eternally. x

next time you decide to criticise me, blame me for things and come up with such cruel descriptions of me and the things i supposedly do… take a step back and realise who the bad person is in this situation. i guess this length of time counts for nothing. i guess any good efforts count for nothing. i’m so hurt and offended that you would say such things. i was always trying to help the situation and do the right thing for you. because, contrary to popular belief, i’m a bit more intuitive than that. well fuck that. and fuck you. seriously, step back and consider who the bad person is here.. i’m not doing what you’re doing. i’m not even doing the things you said i’m doing. thank you for ruining me. and the person i am, or well at least was. thank you for ruining everything else too. you need some serious help.

scarlett-rebecca:

..is the most insanely awesome course ever. like, my assignments consist of studio recording/producing, creating remixes of well-known songs, creating a soundtrack for a short film. who call this work?! bet i will soon… anyone into music should LOOK INTO THIS COURSE

please have a safe flight

because by some retarded miracle

i’m fucking crazy about you.

arsehole.